Read it All

closure is different for all

I read it all back.
All of the messages I sent.
I overthink it all ‘cause sometimes I lack,
Trying not to harp on what went.

I hate making people feel bad.
I just need to make it right.
I was just so sad,
That something had to seem alright.

So we talked,
Glad we’re on good terms.

All my thoughts into one,
But at that point I just felt done.

Maybe I’m just stuck in the past,
Waiting for someone to not make that feeling last.

But I have someone,
Right?
Maybe I don’t,
And just have myself.

I couldn’t move on without apologizing.
I couldn’t feel that peace.

There’s happiness in our history,
I just wish I could remember that instead of the worst.