The Day

Today was the day,

I decided I wasn’t letting you get in my way.

I cared too much,

Praying to get your attention.

Looking at the small act,

That made me lose hope of it all.

Nothing has changed,

Are these words shared meaningless to you?

I’m finally happy.

Planning the trip I want.

Working my ass off so much,

I don’t want anything in my way.

I want to look toned,

Defined,

And happy.

Not happy on the outside,

With anxiety bubbling on the inside.

I don’t want to be the background friend anymore,

Knowing I have someone I can be the main friend to.

I want to be chosen for me,

Not because I’m convenient.

So today was the day,

The leaf has changed.

I’ve always tried to set up one of these days,

But I let you get in that way.

Day 1 complete,

Now 2.

Done with your shit,

Now you can leave with the door hitting you on the way out boo.