the gate

ill say I don’t like you
and never want to see you
ever again.
at least face to face.

but that’s far from the truth.
even if I just want closure.

closure for the end of us 2 years ago.
since you abruptly left with no reason.
even through one last conversation.
just tell me why,
so we can leave it at goodbye.

there was a chance I would see you yesterday
I complained and freaked out.
bracing for you to walk through my gate
even though I was looking forward
to seeing your face,
and just talking to you again.

but the gate never opened
with you walking through it
and somehow that hurt worse
than the first time you left.